10-25-12

Compassion is what Kriplau means. But what does it really mean? The Dali lama speaks of compassion as being the only thing that matters.

So I try to be compassionate. I’m not sure I’m doing it right.

Here are some examples. I get frustrated with people being in the “car” lane through Smith Park. They’ve got the whole other lane. I have no compassion there…only frustration.

I call to catch up with somebody, either personal or business or making an appointment. I call, leave voice message, text, email, even Facebook message and it still takes a week for someone to get back with me, if then. I have no compassion for our present communication system.

Someone offered me compassion. The other night while I was driving home I missed the green left turn arrow, so I went to move into the next/ right lane to go straight ahead. A car speeded up from the right lane to that middle lane so I paused. Then someone came up and let me in. That was sooo kind!

Recently I was told I’m hard on myself. Really? And yet if I am being demanding and exacting of myself, and critical when I don’t meet the bar, then am I being critical of others as well??

I’ve been so busy trying to stay on top of running a business and being a teacher, that I neglect myself. I went to a meeting this week, and was totally ungrounded. I was that way all day. I didn’t take time for myself. So I’m back to the gym. I’m back to riding my bike on the greenway. I’m back to writing and being creative, even if I don’t really think I have the time.

Is that what compassion is? Being kinder to myself so I can be more kind to others? First I take care of me so I may serve others.

I am back. Rooted. Grounded again.

Thanks for allowing me the opportunity to re-discover myself